Arise 'N Shine

Image by 0fjd125gk87 I'm so happy to have some time to sit down and write some things that have been on my mind lately. I've been very busy, and my life has been in a hurry, being in haste to do everything and fit everything into the week and then start a new week with the same hectic lifestyle, which was slowly robbing me of joy, concentration, energy, and hobbies or things I like to do for myself. I've been looking at my life and I was seeing how I enjoy my job and all the work I'm doing, but I'm in a constant giving and I don't invest in myself and the things I enjoy doing. I'm grateful that I've been able to travel and spend time with people I love, but the first thing that caught my attention, after having some time away from work and the frantic life, was not having enough time for what's the most important in my life: my connection and intimacy with God either. When I realized this, I started being more aware of where most of my time and energ...

I know I haven't written for a long time on my blog. It's not something I have been prioritizing lately and I can't promise or say that I will, in the future. I wanted to come up here now and just write my thoughts down.  I haven't been feeling good for a few days, I got a cold and I had time to slow down and think. I've realized that I have been working a lot, I have been active doing lots of things and I have made new friends, which occupied a lot of my time. All of these are good and I love all, but they occupy my life, my thoughts, my feelings and my time. I have this way of mine, that I live in my head and I have lots of thoughts. I've learned that it's not wrong, but it isn't right to be occupied with other things first, rather than with what is the most important. The most important is God and it will always be as such. This will never change and it's something I want more than anything else in the whole universe. The only thing is that when I...

Image by cocoparisienne from Pixabay I can't believe I haven't written to my blog for almost two years. I mentioned one of my blog posts to somebody this week, which made me realize that I have neglected my blog a lot lately. I thought I will just hop on here and write a simple lesson I have learned this week. 

Image by Pixabay I think I often complicate honest and simple thoughts I would want to write about and that's why this post comes later than it should've had. Anyway, I am now writing and I think we are living interesting times. I'm happy to be alive and to know that this period of time was meant to be mine. I've been feeling very happy during this year, experiencing little dreams of mine coming true, little love nuggets, small, caring gestures from God, who was showing me how much He cares about my heart and my relationship with Him. He has been filling my soul box with such delight that I am overwhelmed with excitement and joy! This is how life should be... but... it isn't... I know, we live on this earth where we have to still go through seasons to cope with the changes that require us to mature and learn love well. I'm in... being on this journey, although I won't and don't, at the present, understand many things that happen in and around me....

Image by Jackson David from Pixabay I am in a season where I can feel God's presence in such a deep and sweet way, which fills my life to overflow and to be full of joy. For days I've been singing songs to Him in my spirit, in my dreams and it has been awe-inspiring. I experience such incomprehensible joy... I don't own the right words in my vocabulary to adequately express what a privilege I feel by being the daughter of the Almighty God. Sometimes I just lay on my bed looking up, looking through the ceiling and telling God simply: "I love You!" and then I stand in silence letting Him fill my heart. It's simply but profoundly exhilarating and satisfying the deepest points in my life. I wish life could always be like this, but it isn't. 

Image by Free-Photos from Pixabay I haven't written for a while and I'm not happy about it. "But here I am, and here I stay. Let the storm wage on..." (inspired by Frozen). I have many things in my head that I would love to be able to put down in black and white. "Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets [blogger] so that whoever reads it may run with it ." (Habakkuk 2:2) I won't overthink what I'm going to write about, so enjoy the rawness and simplicity of it. I feel like 70% of my posts are about this topic: the importance of knowing how valuable you are. This is what I want to write about today, as well. Just bear with me.

Image by RondellMelling on Pixabay I have promised to write about the process I went through learning more about the human will. First I want to summarize the last three posts: "the sinful nature is always hostile to God", because of a heart that hates Jesus that's why we have to be born again He is working in you, giving you the desire to obey Him and the power to do what pleases Him the source of sin is the heart, not the will  the sinner chooses sin because he prefers it, it's in his nature, though of course he doesn't enjoy the effects of such a choice   we received a new heart from God, which yearns to fulfill God's purposes and His will on earth sin is more than an action, it's a state of being the will is ruled by the mind and heart, which have been corrupted by sin, so if the man would want to turn towards God, it is God Himself who has to work " to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose" We don't preac...

Photo by Samuel Zeller on Unsplash  As I continue with what I started, I want to encourage you to open your hearts and minds to ask for answers and understanding from God. I'm not writing about this topic because I think I know everything about this, not at all. I think I'm only at the surface and still I find it remarkable and exciting, like looking into a treasure chest and finding hidden jewelry or old gold coins. Today I'll write as a follow-up to my last post. Even though it's a new year and I should post something about it, I won't. It doesn't always have to be as expected. Enjoy reading... I will use Scriptures more for those who are skeptical about this topic. 3. The Incapability of the Human Will There are a few questions that we have to find answers to. Can a person deny or accept Jesus as their Savior? Admitting that the person hears the Good News (Romans 10:17) and the Holy Spirit convicts him/her of the lost condition he/ she is in ...

Photo by Kari Shea on Unsplash This is a follow-up post to the last two I've posted about the human will and choice. I planned to finish these posts sooner, but I'm at ease and don't stress myself, because everything has its own time. This won't be long, it's rather a shorter post. So, today's post is about...  2. The Human Will's Bondage In the last post I was writing about the Nature of the Human Will, how it is influenced to have a preference before choosing anything. Then we realized that the source of our choices is our heart, not the will. We received a new heart from God, which yearns to fulfill God's purposes and His will on earth. Let us look at what holds the will in bondage. After Adam sinned, the human will was biased toward evil and hence it is free in one way, that is the way of evil. What is the bondage then? It is a depraved heart. There's a good illustration to this: let's say I hold an apple in my hand and ...

This is the first part of the series on the Human Will I want to write about. Read the introduction (my previous post) to know why I'm writing about this topic and where my inspiration comes from. Photo by Casey Horner on Unsplash 1. The Nature of the Human Will When the will is acting it means that it has a choice between a positive and a negative or if not there is an inclination towards one rather than the other. Which means that something causes or influences it to choose. This leads to the fact that the will isn't sovereign. A few might say that they can turn their eyes' attention to the right or left and their minds would be indifferent of which they do. That's a contradiction, because it supposes that they can choose one thing in preference to another while being in a state of indifference. Maybe the mind and even the will was indifferent up until it came to have a preference. When indifference disappeared, choice was made.  Indifference --...

Photo by Panos Sakalakis on Unsplash This post of mine is inspired from a book I've been reading for months. I didn't finish it, not because I don't like it, but because it challenged me... there were things that I believed about God and they weren't quite right. There were things in between, which if we have to illustrate, it would look like living with a blurred eyesight and being in need of glasses. The book is one of the books that spoke to the core things in my life and challenged my beliefs. Firstly, it is because it speaks about the Father in a perspective which maybe doesn't necessarily feel right, but which is true looking at the Bible as a whole. Secondly, it is because you get a glimpse of the God Almighty and you feel like a nobody (not in a bad way, but truly realizing who you are compared to His greatness) and as you see Him, you end up worshiping, standing in awe and loving Him more than ever before. Thirdly, it is because of the writing ...

One day I woke up with a song, as I very often do, and I told myself I will write it down to not forget it. What do you think I did? Of course I did not write it down. When you're sleepy you just think "I won't forget it, I just want to doze a little bit more and afterwards I'll write it down", but as you maybe know, you forget it and regret not writing it down. I only know that the song was about lots of questions about who God is, how He is and what great things He does. I was pondering about these questions and then the same week the leader of the Mission spoke about how Jesus declared in John 6 who He was. When He declared who He was, most of the people knew Him only for a year. He shocked them by what He said:   

Photo by Joshua Sortino on Unsplash I missed writing on my blog, because I really enjoy it a lot. What I want to write about today is knowing that God is a very good Father, always thinking of the best of us and for us. I can't describe how thankful I am and how my heart is overflowing with gratitude. It's astonishing to see how much He cares for an unimportant girl in a little town in an Eastern European country on a little planet. The lesson I'm learning to practice and believe in with my heart's mind is: God loves me unconditionally and wants me close. You may think: didn't you know that already? It's an old story. Yes, you're right, because He was, is and always will be like that. I won't complicate my post. And I hope from now on I will post short thoughts and things I've been learning. So stay tuned. Now back to what I meant with the statement: God loves me unconditionally! I realized that running to God whenever you fail, ...

Photo by Facundo Aranda on Unsplash I've been thinking of deleting some of my older posts here on my blog, because I think they aren't good. But then I changed my mind. I want to leave them here because they speak about me and it says my story, my development and God's fingerprint in my life. I'm not perfect and I shouldn't always have such high expectations from myself. It's okay, it's my journey, it's my life, my song played on the strings of my heart. Last year was a very blessed year financially and relationship-wise. I started the year on another continent with strangers (in a way), but seekers of God and I was so happy to see God work in the lives of people. I was truly amazed by how personal God is. Then God spoke and inscribed my identity and my purpose unto the walls of my heart. I was overwhelmed, and till I got used to the inscription after coming back home and being busy with work, which by the way makes a lot of fun and is a joy,...

I've been feeling God working on my heart lately and He told me that this year will be a year in which He will restore my heart. It will be a year of restoration and new beginnings. Last December I received a painting from a little princess girl and it was such a huge message for me. The girl told me it's for me because God loves me a lot. I asked her what the colors she chose mean, she didn't know and I thought it's not even important, but I was wrong. While praying in a small group God revealed it all to me. I'll try to write it down as well as I can.   [If you want: scroll to the bottom of this post and click play to the song I attached and continue reading while having the song in the background...just a tip]

Photo by Harman Abiwardani on Unsplash I want to write about something I have written before in some of my posts. It's about loosing sight of God, but afterwards being restored. Since we're nearing the end of this year, I reflected on how this year was for me. Question upon question was swirling in my head about some things God spoke to my heart in such a precision and affection that I couldn't really understand half of it, but I was faithful to His leadership and I knew He was the One who would know what He has planned for me. My relationship with God was always simple and profound, at the same time. Simple... because I was an unqualified match for Him, but still I felt loved and accepted by His embrace and I knew I can be honest with Him and tell Him everything that concerned my life and everything around me. When I entered this relationship, I received a new relational identity...the identity of a daughter. This leads to the profound part, because the Fathe...

[Photo by Gabby Orcutt on Unsplash] I had this as a draft for months, because I haven't taken time for it. Sad, but true. I'll continue with the posts about my trip to the United States of America, although it's a while ago, but I will link it together with an experience I had this summer. I "stepped" into a new year in another country on a different continent and the first day of the year was a Sunday. Going very late to bed the day before didn't hold me back from going to church in the morning. Rosie (read my previous post if you want to find out who she is) came to pick me up and at the entrance of the center, where I slept, I met an Asian girl, who asked me if I'm going to church (FCF). Then and there at that moment I didn't know that she'll become a very precious friend to me. As I told her that we are heading to FCF exactly at that moment, she asked if she can join me and another girl from my room. So, the four of us headed towards c...

I'm continuing to write about my trip to the United States of America. This will be a post like never before seen on my blog. It's a compilation of sermon notes and my experiences. Let's see to it... I arrived in Los Angeles and my dear cousin picked me up with her family. After just a day with them, I continued my way to Kansas City, MO. As I was traveling, I've been thinking about not knowing anyone in Kansas City and about how I would interact with unknown people. I was very excited at the same moment, because I was going to a conference I have been watching for years and I was growing spiritually a lot from. As the conference began, I was amazed and I still couldn't fathom that I was sitting there. The conference' name was the One Thing Conference. I will continue with what I've come home with from attending this conference.

I finally came to the point to write my adventure down. I've been asked again and again to relate the things I went through after I visited the States and what I liked most of the trip of my dreams . I will start a series, because I have so many things to tell that I can't do it in a post. After having all the Christmas preparations and celebrations at the kindergarten and after celebrating Christmas Eve together with the family and friends, we've been traveling to Budapest on the first day of Christmas. Why I say "we", is because all of my four sisters accompanied me to the airport to see my dream come true. I think this one thing was one of the greatest gifts they have ever given me. Not just the fact that they came with me on the first day of Christmas, but they also sacrificed a night's sleep because my plane was taking off early in the morning on the 26th December which meant that we had to be on our way during the night. While preparing to board the ...

I thought this post would be about telling you about my experiences in the States, but I was wrong, because God has put on my heart to write about my desire to experience and see the flourishing work of God in another place- country- continent. I wanted to visit America first because I loved the language and then because I wanted to see the flourishing of the valley in the darkness of that part of this fallen world and to experience God's presence in the places which have blessed me a lot in the past few years through internet. My desire was to see the Word of God produce fruit in His people on the other side of the earth.