Jul 28, 2015

The deep cry of our hearts

I was thinking about things I see happening in our local church and my town and I was often discouraged and I had a deep sorrow in my heart. I've kept hungering for more from God and thirsting increasingly after His presence. I've kept dreaming about a transformed society in this town and awaiting a revival. It's so interesting because a few weeks ago I read Hannah's story in the Bible and I was touched by the story. Afterwards God spoke to me exactly from the same story through Corey Russell's book about prayer. So I'll put these things into this post, because I instantly knew God wants to highlight these things. 

Despite the disappointment and pain caused by the fact that she was barren, Hannah insisted and continued to bring the deepest desire of her heart before God. Right from the beginning of the book of 1 Samuel we meet two wives, very different from each other. One had children, and the other didn’t...

May 1, 2015

Even if you don't feel...

The previous week I've had such a spirit of condemnation and shame upon me. I had such a melancholic depression upon me that I thought I'm going crazy. I felt all the pain that I went through in my earlier years and was feeling so sad and dirty. Although I knew I'm in Christ and I'm no longer the same person I was and although I was living my daily life, these feelings haunted me and wouldn't want to leave. It was like a winter season I was experiencing with its cold winds blowing through every part of me, shivering in the cold and vibrating silently like a single leaf that remained there on the tree after autumn. It was weird indeed... unpleasant as well. Then I realized I was focusing on me, how I lived, how I am and how I'm going to be. I was obsessed with seeing the things I lacked in my relationship with the Lord and all the deficiencies in my time with Him. I started searching for reasons why I'm feeling this way. I thought I was living after the books and I was doing good. "I love Jesus and that's the most important thing I need, so why in the world do I go through this stuff.

Apr 14, 2015

Passionate Giving

Something I wanted to write about for some time is about giving! I want to rely on the Word of God and my own experience with giving. 

Since I was little I have seen my dad as a very generous person. He never thought about giving away freely anything he had. He really gave out of love and without second thoughts. My mom sometimes complained about it, because then he didn't have things he needed, but he never complained and never felt the loss of those things he had given away. I was always amazed about His generosity and unselfishness! It amazed me and I always wished to be able to live like that. Then as we, the children, grew up, I saw how my siblings were generous too and I was again amazed by their example. 

Feb 26, 2015

Hungry for more

I just want to share with you an awesome event that took place and I think it’s important. At the beginning of this year, we've started a worship and prayer meeting on Sunday afternoon, where people who hunger after more of God's Presence and who want to lift God up in unity, come together and seek after that. I know God goes to great lengths to win our heart and to encounter us as a Bridegroom. He is pursuing our hearts, captivating it and we desire to find comfort, strength and rest in this pursuit. He knows exactly how to approach us, how to woo our hearts and awaken a passionate love in us. At these meetings we want to let God have us, let Him do whatever He has to do to awaken us… to make us His completely. We want Him to conquer all of us! We know that pursuing God will be a lifelong journey of ours and that there are going to be ups and downs, but we dedicate ourselves to continually realign ourselves to go after all what He prepares for us. We long to experience God’s love by receiving and responding to it. We want to love Him with all our hearts (affections), with all our souls (personality), with all our minds (intellect) and with all our strength (resources). We want to grow in this love. We want our capacity to be enlarged to experience affection from Jesus. Because it doesn’t grow automatically, we want to cultivate it. We want to be His even though the things that we so desire are withheld from us, even though sometimes we don’t feel His Presence, even though we’re often disappointed by negative circumstances…especially when circumstances concerning Divine promises of blessing are not released in the timing or the way we expected. Yes, this is our heart- cry “We are Yours regardless”! It’s so essential to focus only on the One…oh, if I could use the right words I would really want to use…

Feb 14, 2015

Her Love Story

I wanted to write a post this Valentine’s Day about my blessed and sweet friend and her love story. Her story magnifies God and speaks about how God is truly able to write an awesome love story here on earth for those who wait on Him to do it and trust His guidance. My American friend’s name is Chynna Love Reece, but I met her as Chynna Love Lee. The first time I read her name I loved her and I knew I wanted to meet her closer. I don’t know exactly when I first ended up on her blog, but I think it was the beginning of the year 2011. What I really admire is her humble spirit and her love for Jesus. She is so precious to my heart! In 2011 she started to do a dating fast, where she committed to be single for a whole year to grow closer to God and to find true satisfaction in His love. She started an internship at a church where there was an Australian student, called Callum. She heard a lot of things about him and wanted to meet him, so she sent him a short message on Facebook "I've heard so much about you. I will be the youth intern this summer... Will you be coming back?" He replied her but she thought she shouldn’t keep contact to him, but God had other plans for her. Hoping to avoid being put in the category with people who date someone that they have only met online, Chynna tried pretending her feelings for Callum were nothing. God knew her desires and made a point to ask her what her intentions were. While in prayer, she committed to a year to being single. She told God that if it was His will that she would end up with the young man in Australia, then He would have a year to bring him to her. So after the Facebook message, Callum started being interested in her life. In the third message he sent, he said, "Honestly, I talk about the USA and my time there so much that most of my friends insist I marry an American so I can just move there". All of Chynna’s friends had said the same thing about her, because all she talked about was Australia. I couldn't help, but think that he was the one I would marry.

Jan 26, 2015

God steadies my heart

I've been having some hard time lately, but it kept bringing me close to God and made my heart tender to everything I receive from Him! I'm so thankful that God so often encourages me and lifts me up through songs and words that I yearn to tell and sing to Him but can't find them. He knows my heart and this song speaks of my journey in this moment. I have so many unanswered questions in my head that when I'm going to bed I can't shut them down even though I'm exhausted. I cling to Him with steadfastness, because I know Him, I know He is good and He shelters me from the cold carrying me and never letting me go (Immanuel). I put my world into His hands and He comforts me and steadies my heart. I feel Him in the stillness...oh, what would I do without Him?

Dec 6, 2014

For the dreamers

This will be a short post! I just wanted to say that I am a big dreamer! I envision things and really want them to come into being, but it's so hard to hold unto dreams that don't come true in the time frame I envision it. You need God in such situations, to know Him and to hold on even if on the edge. You should never let go EVEN if you see the contrary. Hold on to them even when your eyes are full of tears. Be the Joseph of your generation and WAIT for Him to act, because He will, oh yes...He will! 

God encouraged me so much after I was pretty disappointed with the things I'm not seeing and would want to see, so I cried out to Him and He came to my rescue. I want to encourage the dreamers out there with the words He told me:

Dec 1, 2014

Spoiling children?

In the past weeks I've been so sorry, so sorrowful and even mad, because I saw parents, mothers and fathers, who can't raise their children. My heart ached so much for the children, who are being destroyed because of two people who can't live their lives properly and take responsibility for their own child. I'm pretty devastated after seeing the carelessness of people with children. I work a lot with children for years and I love them so much and I try to be the best example I can be, by being myself filled with love for them.

Oct 12, 2014

The revelation

I've learned something awesome and I wanted to share it with you. We all know the story where Jesus speaks with a Samaritan woman at the Jacob's well. It's interesting how many mysteries there are in that passage. I've never thought of it like that. Let's see. The first interesting thing is that Jesus sat down at the Jacob's well. This well which represents all our corruption, all of the mixture, all the clever I-want-to-be-better-than-everybody-else...the old well. This well was closed by Jesus, because as He came, He SAT down. A Well sitting on a well. He really is a well. He closed a stream and opened up a living stream. Suddenly a woman came with a container and wanted to draw water. Jesus said to her: “Please give me a drink.”, but He spoke in mystery, going deeper, wanting to touch her heart not just have water. He was trying to bring her to think in a different realm, but she kept thinking about all the differences between him and her, where they worship, how they worship, Jerusalem, the mountain, questioning how He can give her living water...she was totally mixed up.