The previous week I've had such a spirit of condemnation and shame upon me. I had such a melancholic depression upon me that I thought I'm going crazy. I felt all the pain that I went through in my earlier years and was feeling so sad and dirty. Although I knew I'm in Christ and I'm no longer the same person I was and although I was living my daily life, these feelings haunted me and wouldn't want to leave. It was like a winter season I was experiencing with its cold winds blowing through every part of me, shivering in the cold and vibrating silently like a single leaf that remained there on the tree after autumn. It was weird indeed... unpleasant as well. Then I realized I was focusing on me, how I lived, how I am and how I'm going to be. I was obsessed with seeing the things I lacked in my relationship with the Lord and all the deficiencies in my time with Him. I started searching for reasons why I'm feeling this way. I thought I was living after the books and I was doing good. "I love Jesus and that's the most important thing I need, so why in the world do I go through this stuff."
Apr 14, 2015
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Something I wanted to write about for some time is about giving! I want to rely on the Word of God and my own experience with giving.
Since I was little I have seen my dad as a very generous person. He never thought about giving away freely anything he had. He really gave out of love and without second thoughts. My mom sometimes complained about it, because then he didn't have things he needed, but he never complained and never felt the loss of those things he had given away. I was always amazed about His generosity and unselfishness! It amazed me and I always wished to be able to live like that. Then as we, the children, grew up, I saw how my siblings were generous too and I was again amazed by their example.
Feb 26, 2015
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I just want to share with you an awesome event that took place and I think it’s important. At the beginning of this year, we've started a worship and prayer meeting on Sunday afternoon, where people who hunger after more of God's Presence and who want to lift God up in unity, come together and seek after that. I know God goes to great lengths to win our heart and to encounter us as a Bridegroom. He is pursuing our hearts, captivating it and we desire to find comfort, strength and rest in this pursuit. He knows exactly how to approach us, how to woo our hearts and awaken a passionate love in us. At these meetings we want to let God have us, let Him do whatever He has to do to awaken us… to make us His completely. We want Him to conquer all of us! We know that pursuing God will be a lifelong journey of ours and that there are going to be ups and downs, but we dedicate ourselves to continually realign ourselves to go after all what He prepares for us. We long to experience God’s love by receiving and responding to it. We want to love Him with all our hearts (affections), with all our souls (personality), with all our minds (intellect) and with all our strength (resources). We want to grow in this love. We want our capacity to be enlarged to experience affection from Jesus. Because it doesn’t grow automatically, we want to cultivate it. We want to be His even though the things that we so desire are withheld from us, even though sometimes we don’t feel His Presence, even though we’re often disappointed by negative circumstances…especially when circumstances concerning Divine promises of blessing are not released in the timing or the way we expected. Yes, this is our heart- cry “We are Yours regardless”! It’s so essential to focus only on the One…oh, if I could use the right words I would really want to use…
Feb 14, 2015
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I wanted to write a post this Valentine’s Day about my blessed and sweet friend and her love story. Her story magnifies God and speaks about how God is truly able to write an awesome love story here on earth for those who wait on Him to do it and trust His guidance. My American friend’s name is Chynna Love Reece, but I met her as Chynna Love Lee. The first time I read her name I loved her and I knew I wanted to meet her closer. I don’t know exactly when I first ended up on her blog, but I think it was the beginning of the year 2011. What I really admire is her humble spirit and her love for Jesus. She is so precious to my heart! In 2011 she started to do a dating fast, where she committed to be single for a whole year to grow closer to God and to find true satisfaction in His love. She started an internship at a church where there was an Australian student, called Callum. She heard a lot of things about him and wanted to meet him, so she sent him a short message on Facebook "I've heard so much about you. I will be the youth intern this summer... Will you be coming back?" He replied her but she thought she shouldn’t keep contact to him, but God had other plans for her. Hoping to avoid being put in the category with people who date someone that they have only met online, Chynna tried pretending her feelings for Callum were nothing. God knew her desires and made a point to ask her what her intentions were. While in prayer, she committed to a year to being single. She told God that if it was His will that she would end up with the young man in Australia, then He would have a year to bring him to her. So after the Facebook message, Callum started being interested in her life. In the third message he sent, he said, "Honestly, I talk about the USA and my time there so much that most of my friends insist I marry an American so I can just move there". All of Chynna’s friends had said the same thing about her, because all she talked about was Australia. I couldn't help, but think that he was the one I would marry.
Jan 26, 2015
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Dec 6, 2014
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God encouraged me so much after I was pretty disappointed with the things I'm not seeing and would want to see, so I cried out to Him and He came to my rescue. I want to encourage the dreamers out there with the words He told me:
Dec 1, 2014
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Oct 12, 2014
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I've learned something awesome and I wanted to share it with you. We all know the story where Jesus speaks with a Samaritan woman at the Jacob's well. It's interesting how many mysteries there are in that passage. I've never thought of it like that. Let's see. The first interesting thing is that Jesus sat down at the Jacob's well. This well which represents all our corruption, all of the mixture, all the clever I-want-to-be-better-than-everybody-else...the old well. This well was closed by Jesus, because as He came, He SAT down. A Well sitting on a well. He really is a well. He closed a stream and opened up a living stream. Suddenly a woman came with a container and wanted to draw water. Jesus said to her: “Please give me a drink.”, but He spoke in mystery, going deeper, wanting to touch her heart not just have water. He was trying to bring her to think in a different realm, but she kept thinking about all the differences between him and her, where they worship, how they worship, Jerusalem, the mountain, questioning how He can give her living water...she was totally mixed up.
Sep 23, 2014
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In August I was on a trip with my youth group and we hiked a lot enjoying the great view. First, we went to an adventure park and it was very challenging, because I don't have so much strength in my hands (sadly, that's a fact). We had to face obstacles and to have faith that we can do anything if we don't give up in the middle of it. We had to concentrate, exceed our limits, trust in our ability to do it, have fun, be equipped, climb, go on despite uncertainty, leave our fear of height out and not remain caught in the net (oh my goodness, this was the hardest). But I really liked it... There was a point I thought I can't do it, that was Tarzan's net. My strength faded away and I was feeling so powerless and useless to move, but then with my sister encouraging me and with time I did it and was happy to get finish that track :)