Dec 21, 2016

One of my dreams is coming true

I don't know where to start and how to write all those things I want to...I hope I won't forget anything. I'll be writing about my long-awaited trip to the States and all my friends know that I've been dreaming about this for a long, long time now. I won't be short on this post, so take some time to read my experiences and worship the One true God!

In 2015 God showed me that it's time to visit the States for me. After first hearing that, I've shoved it away because it was nearly impossible. Then at the beginning of this year God clearly showed me that it will happen this year. I was so sure of it that I started telling people that it will happen even though there was not even a glimpse of hope for it. I've been growing up loving the USA and everything that had to do with it. Many people were telling me that Americans are different and overindulging, and I should like England, because many great revivals sprang out from there. I didn't care...my heart was connected to America, without any specific cause, that I could explain. So, back in 2015 I've even found an entry to my journal where I asked God to not "disappoint me", but if He promises me that I'll go to the States then He should make it possible. I've even confessed that I'm afraid to dream and asked Him to tell me for sure: "Is it in Your will for me or will I be disappointed? I don't want to raise my hopes if it won't happen." I was honest and really wasn't offended that I had to wait so long. He didn't really answer, but put such an assurance into my heart that I knew "this time, it's for real!" I started taking little steps towards it, but they were pure faith-steps, because they were no hints showing that this will actually take place. Then a friend gave me a prophetic word from God, which made me trust the Lord and believe that the time will soon come: "Remember what I have told you, the things I have promised you. And sign back up, it's worth it."

Nov 26, 2016

When the Path Disappoints by @DanaCandler

On my birthday God gave me such great words to heal my heart deeper in a way only He can and to bring my focus back: totally on Him. I was amazed by how God comes close to me. I start to be thankful for the disappointments in my life, not anticipating but knowing that His ways for me are perfect. They have made my heart stronger and more love-sick than before. I'm on a path where I delight myself in God, His Words to me and His plans for me...which gives me such a fulfillment that I can't put it into words. This is the way I really like it, being romanced by Jesus. It's so divine that I can't comprehend it, but it's an inevitable walk of waiting on Him and walking with Him. He is so real to me, even when I cannot see and everything around me is spinning. I would give everything to be able to describe the beauty and fullness of it all. I'm learning that words are not everything, but the heart with which something is conveyed makes all the difference. So, let me share with you the message I received. Enjoy reading it:

Nov 3, 2016

A bird flying freely

Sometimes in my routine I think about some topics which are significant for my journey and think that it would be awesome to write it down on my blog. I feel such a sudden flood of lots of ideas, information and thoughts. When it comes to writing them down I try to remember all those great things I had inside of me and I realize they evaporated. Oh, how many times it happened... I can't count. Anyway, I just want to write about the topic that lately was swirling inside of me: being accepted and secure!


Oct 24, 2016

I've been found by love

Even in times of trouble I have a joyful confidence, knowing that my pressures will develop in me patient endurance. And patient endurance will refine my character, and proven character leads me back to hope. And this hope is not a disappointing fantasy, because I can now experience the endless love of God cascading into my heart through the Holy Spirit who lives in me! [Romans 5:3-5 made personal by me] TPT

These past days I've been going through some deep stuff with God. Starting at being hopeless and ending in being full of hope, faith and love for Him. He told me that He chose me to be close to Him and asked me frankly: "Have you grown weary with your journey?" My answer was sad, honest, and I was crying out: "Yes, everything looks so hopeless around me! I want to see all those great things I've been dreaming with You! I want to see the fruits of my investment and faithfulness! It hurts so much to be wandering around again and again seeing the same turning points, as if I'm blocked in a cycle." What did He do after hearing this? 

Oct 1, 2016

The center of our inward being

Lately we've been talking about Jesus being the center of all and the central point in our inner life. This is why I wanted to write a few sentences regarding this topic of essential meaning. Entering deeper in the knowledge of our God, we will ultimately come upon this truth: the focus on the center. What do I mean with that? It's something, or rather Someone, inside every new-born believer that's like a magnetic attraction. Deep inside, God is pursuing us like a magnet and He is drawing us deeper and deeper still, pouring His love into us. There's a continual pouring happening inside of us, because Jesus imparted to us God's love, so that we may experience the same endless love that God has for Jesus.

Jul 1, 2016

A call to a journey to love God for His sake alone


I want to invite you to love God with no self-intention, but only for His sake. Let us learn that we don't need to say a lot to Him or even think of Him much, for He sees our deepest parts, our sufferings, our hurt, our joys, our pain, our needs and our willingness to obey and submit. With people we love we don't need to always say "I love you with all my heart". TRUE LOVE IS DEEP, DEEP DOWN IN THE SPIRIT- uncomplicated, unsophisticated, peaceful, wild and silent. Just gazing at Him, just looking and savoring His attention and His affection. Believe me, that won't make you selfish or self-centered, but rather it makes you more like Him. 

Jun 25, 2016

She loves Jesus recklessly


I wanted to do this so long ago, but now I felt that the time has come. I haven't prepared to write about this but I feel God telling me to do this and you can bet, it will be an honest one. So, here it comes...

May 14, 2016

Learn to be yourself

I'm so ashamed of my delay in posting what I promised to do a couple of months ago. So after these being said I want to start telling you a few of the things I've experienced at the beginning of this year. 

In January I've been in Germany at the Mehr Konferenz in Augsburg, where I had such a great time. Heidi Baker was present and she taught me lots of lessons there. This was the first time I've seen her live and she was a few meters away from me. During worship she said to the leaders: "I don't want to be backstage. I want to be where my family is, before the altar worshiping our Father." This very fact amazed me, because I think leaders have to learn from her: carrying such humility and not seeing themselves higher than others... that's valuable and so Christ-like. 

Feb 20, 2016

Looking back to praise Him ~2015



I wanted to write this post to my blog on the last day of the previous year and tell you about how happy I am to have you all in my life. I was so blessed the former year that thinking back makes me want to burst out with praise and worship to my God. This post will sum the most important steps I have taken with God in 2015. The most important thing I want to say is that God is so loving and faithful to me that I’m overwhelmed and love-sick for my Bridegroom. In 2015 He has flooded me with His love, presence, identity, joy, encouragement, hope and so much more. I was experiencing Him in such an abundant way.
So let’s start: